My oldest daughter will turn five in about a week. It seems like time is sneaking up on me. Last night I look at her sleeping and I just cry, I still remember the day I gave birth to her, when I used to look at her while nursing and just in awe of how beautiful she is and the most amazing thing is the fact that she’s mine!
As a parent, all you can do is trying. I try to be a good mom, I try to give her enough attention, makes her happy, filled her childhood with happiness and good memories just like what my parents did to me. They are certain things I wish I can do better, but I know with all my heart that I tried my very best.
I feel blessed and privilege that this first 5 years Tyra has shared with me have been wonderful, she’s a very loving child inside and out and I really couldn’t ask for more. Through her innocent eyes I can still the beauty of the world, how everything is like a wonderland full of wonder and beauty, with her I can still let my imagination run wild, one day I’m the queen, tomorrow I’m a pirate, a mermaid and the next day I’m the teacher etc….
She has taught me so much, before her, I never knew I was capable of having that much love for one person, before her I never knew this inner strength I have within me, enough to hold any storm that come my way in order to protect her…. I will do whatever it takes to shield her from the ugliness for the world out there.. right now she’s still believes in fairy tale and so be it….
She’s my great motivator, she’s my constant reminder of why I want to better myself, why I’m working so hard at work and school When I feel down and almost give up with school I just take one look at her and I know why I shouldn’t give up. It’s all for her. At the end of the day, the fruit of my labor are for my family, for my child. I’m not doing this out of the selfishness of me, I’m doing it for my family….
She made me humble…
Looking at her and her little sister sleeping peacefully I said a little pray for them, for my family and myself for God to protect them always, to give me the strength to protect them, to always be there for them. When they realize that fairy tale is only in imagination, when they can see the ugliness of the world out there… I hope they know that I will always protect them no matter what.
Happy birthday my sweetheart…