My little one sick..
December 23, 2009 
It’s been so long since Tyra got sick. I think it’s been little over two years… of course she got little runny nose and cough throughout that two years, but nothing serious. Sunday night (or Monday morning) at around 1 am, she started throwing up. Then she complained how her tummy was hurting. I knew it’s stomach flu right away. I start getting things ready, padding for the bed, little bucket, towel, moist towel and extra clothes for her. And unfortunately I was right. She’s then throwing up every hour. Every little sip of water she took, within minutes she will throw it back out. At 4 am, I call my work and tell them I wasn’t coming. And at that time I remember what I should do based on what the doctor & nurse told me when this happened to her in the past. Let her stomach settle down and give one table spoon liquid every 15 – 15 minutes and go from there. It’s a heart breaking to see her ask for water though. I can only give her so much but I know she’s thirsty, even though it’s very hard not to give her too much drink, but it work, she stop throwing up at around 6 – 7 am. So I started giving her ice chips and that’s helps little bit.
She’s very week too, and I think that’s what hurt the most for me to see, how my usually active little girl just lying there pale and weak. Maybe the pregnancy drawn more emotions out of me too, plus I’m very tired myself from not sleeping and running around cleaning after her the whole night. My husband came home early to help out, he’s home at 6 am and start taking over, but how can you sleeps peacefully really when your little one is sick?
Anyway… she’s stop throwing up since that last one on Monday morning, and she’s started getting much better yesterday. Her appetite slowly getting back, she’s still got little fever and somehow runny nose, I’m just glad the throwing up stops and she’s slowly getting better.
Hmong baby….
December 15, 2009 
I think this baby for sure will be a hmong baby… :) I’ve been craving more of Hmong food! My friend have been very nice and generous making me Hmong egg roll, I was planning on taking the picture of the eggroll and post it here, but it was gone the minutes they left my house… hahaha.. I think I ate 5 at one serving! Last week I was craving this dishes, I don’t know the name and it’s actually very simple, it’s just boil chicken with salt pepper, cilantro & green onion. My in law made it few times for us and during the Hmong new year celebration at friend’s house they serve this dishes and last week I’m craving it! Among all the other food I could’ve want, I want that one! Hahaha.. that’s pregnant woman for you huh…
Today… somehow I wanted to eat a good laab! Crazy!! There’s a good Thai restaurant in Colorado Springs that served a good laab.. but we’re nowhere close to that place.. oh well. I have to try to make it myself tonight… 
Another Angel on the way!!!
December 10, 2009 
We found out on Tuesday that we’re having another girl.. YAY!! Since day one I had this feeling that I’m carrying another girl. We’re all ecstatic on the news, especially Tyra. Too bad she falls asleep waiting for the ultrasound and miss it. We gave her the picture when she woke up, to my surprise she can recognize the picture right away. She can see the baby’s face, the hand and feet, I thought I have to do a whole lot of explanation on the picture.
Now, I finally know the gender, I started updated my registry with more of cute pink stuff!
Next step: Shopping for crib and changing table!
I’m hormonal…
Maybe it’s the pregnancy or my husband’s family just really knows how to push the button like always. They call us on Saturday want to talk to Tyra… and Tyra told her grandparents in WI that she’s really sad that her grandma (my Mom) is going home to Indonesia soon. She also said to them that she want to go to Indonesia with her. Somehow my in law freak out over this and kept on telling my husband about their concern. Listen to this:
“why would you want to sent her away, what happened of no one care for her over there, what if there’s no one that can speak English to her, what if there’s no child to play with?” blah.. blah.. blah…. . Does it slip his freakin mind that this is MY family he’s talking about? Honestly what he said hurt me really bad! His concern has no basics at all. This is MY FAMILY he’s talking about!! Tyra’s own flesh and blood. Does he think my family is just like HIS family? Then yes, he should be concern.
I trust my family with my child more than I trust them! Heck, I trust my neighbor and friends with my child than I trust them. People in Indonesia are not that stupid! We speak English and in most cases better than some of their family member! Tyra have lots of cousins in Jakarta to play with and his concern of no one will take care of her? Is he freakin kidding me? That is Tyra’s family he’s talking about… my family!!!
You know.. I understand about his concern, if I were just to ship off my kids with strangers. But again this is my family he’s talking about. So yeah.. I’m pretty hurt. I can kinda accept it when they talked smack about me (or I’m used to it anyway) but it’s a whole different story when it involves my family. It’s like my wedding all over again.
Another story (still related to them) when we told them we’re pregnant, we ask if they can come to help us out with babysitting. It’s mostly to help us watch over Tyra since she can’t really visit us at the hospital. We also told them our plan on going there a month after the baby is born – around memorial weekend, so we can do the baby celebration with the whole family. This baby will due end of April and we ask if maybe they can come around the mid April or at least the 25th of April.
Yesterday we receive a phone call telling us that they will be a party for my in law in April. I don’t get what this means… they know we’re due in April and we ask for their help to come in April… aside from that, of course we won’t be able to come; I can pop this baby any day in April! Are they just completely disregarding us as family? I know they are, but at least before they have little decency to pretend that they care about us… not it just seems like they don’t care and make it so obvious for us to know that we really have no place in that family.
Well.. we’ve survived this long without their help…. We will again… remember my family – the one that they thought won’t be able to take care of Tyra? Well, my Mom told me not to worry she’ll fly down here sooner to help us out so we don’t have to depend on the in law. Amen for my family!
Bittersweet goodbye….
Muhammad, the Prophet of Islam who passed away in 632, related:
“Gabriel came to me and said, ‘O Muhammad, live as you wish, for you shall eventually die. Love whom you desire, for you shall eventually depart. Do what you please, for you shall pay. Know that the night-prayer[1] is the honor of a believer, and his pride is being independant on others.’” (Silsilah al-Saheehah)
If there is only one thing certain about life, it is that it ends.
After two years of battling with cancer, my dear boss passes away last Friday. He was only 53 yrs, still consider very young and have a full life ahead of him. I only been working with him for 2.5 years, but he’s been such a great mentor for me, a great manager and at few occasions acted as a father figure.
He was diagnose with stage 4 lung cancer exactly two years ago, since then he refuse to give up and try everything he possibly can to beat his cancer. Always shows a positive attitude even when we know he’s in a lot of pain. Finally early this year, this body just can not take it anymore and he has to be in a long term disability. We left his office intact with hope he will beat this and come back again by the end of this year… At that point, most people knew it just a matter of time .. but I’m still in denial. I really do care for him and refuse to believe that he might be gone.
He came and visit us once in a while .. we all can see the physical difference, he lost all of his hair, his skin was so pale and he lose tons of weight. But he still the same Bob that we knew, still have the same smile, still have the same sense of humor.
Tuesday November 10th, he came and visit us at the Bank, he brought in a big box with him, then he told me it’s time to let go and he’s here to clean up his office for good. As sad as it was, he’s again in a very good spirit .. he even told us he was playing a round of golf the day before and will play again that afternoon. He also told us his plan of visiting his family in Salt Lake City that weekend.
Come to work the next Monday, I heard he got a heart attack and was being treated in hospital. I spoke with his wife on the phone, she always sound so positive and even told us he might be going home in the next day or two. I wasn’t worry then.. on Tuesday, some of the manager went and visit him, came back and told me that things doesn’t look good and they don’t think he will be able to go home anytime soon. That Tuesday night after work, I went and see him … when I arrive, all family member was waiting in the hall way crying.. I assume the worst and started to cry too… that night the doctor made a decision to move him to ICU because his heart was too weak to support his body and the other organ started to failing.. apparently his kidney already shut down.. I was able to see him that night for just a minute, before I left he wanted to hug me the he kiss me and he whisper “Good Bye Sendie.. you take care..” I can not stop crying since that night thinking about him…
Wednesday afternoon, we have few customer stop by after pay him a visit, they told us based on what the doctor said, he might not even make it through that night. Few of us, including me rush to the hospital to see him again and he does look worse that he was before… he told us how much pain he’s in… the look of him being so much in pain and so weak is too much for me to handle. He kept on squeezing my hand as if he try to assure me that he’s okay.. he’s hanging there… at that time I knew… I wasn’t in denial anymore.. I just wish God will take him away from all of his pain so that he can rest in peace.
The Priest gave him his last rites on Thursday and he went peacefully Friday morning. We went to his viewing on Monday and his memorial services at St Francis Cabrini yesterday. I will miss him terribly.. but at least I know he’s not in pain anymore…. And I got a change to say good bye… Good Bye Bob… Thanks for everything…
“When we are gone and people weep for us and grieve, let it be because we touched their lives with beauty and simplicity. Let not be said that life was good to us, but rather we were good to life..” Jacob P. Rudin
Jon & Kate…
I can’t believe I’m going to write something about this people…
anyway.. just hear that Jon Gosselin countersues TLC for $5M for damaging his reputation… I mean, really..???
I watch the show (before the whole drama) on and off because of the kids.. and I used to wonder about how Kate treat her husband, now it’s sickening to see what a selfish cry baby he’s become…I always thought Kate was harsh, but now after seeing the real Jon no wonder she treated him the way she did! He’s not a man, just like the 9th child of the family. Just because he have paparazi follow him, that doesn’t makes him a good TV material. What makes him think TV and viewers are interested in seeing HIM do anything? Beside cheating, what’s his talent–whining?
TLC should sue him for legal fees based on a nonsense lawsuit.
Little things called love…
Just want to share something personal….
My mom and I have a heart to heart conversation yesterday, mostly about kids, marriage and family. Then somehow I ask him a question about how did she knows that my dad was the one. I know my dad is very romantic, till this day beside their anniversary, he celebrate 5th of October – that’s the day they first met!
My Mom is a very beautiful woman, and I didn’t say that because she’s my Mom, but because she is. Even right now in her 60s she look better than me in my 30s! From stories my grandma, aunts, uncles and cousins told me, I knew that there are a lot of guy who is after my Mom and I’ve met some of them and those guys are not just regular guy… one owned the largest department store in southeast Asia (equal to macy here in US) one is a plastic surgeon and one is the owner of the largest paint company in Indonesia – that is just to name a few. And my dad, yeah he’s loaded too, but really compare to those guys, he’s probably only worth half and he’s just okay looking – my brother in law even bluntly say he don’t think my dad deserve to be with my mom – of course he’s only looking at things physically just like how the rest of his family thinks.
So I did ask that question – not because I think my dad doesn’t deserve to be with my mom, but I just would like to know what makes her choose him. Her answer makes me cry… she told me that yes, there are a lot of guys who are attracted to her and sending her expensive jewelry and gifts and she did go out with some of them. She told me there’s something different about my dad. The way he cares and notice small little thing. He gave her expensive gifts too on special occasions, but it’s what he did on daily basis that win her. He remembers special dates, special times and special moment and embraces all that. My Mom told me that the love she feels for my dad is not like a fireworks type of emotions, but rather something that grow slowly and softly.
Little background on my mom childhood…. Both my grandma and my aunt fail on their first marriages due to their husband infidelity – in fact my aunt was somewhat abuse by her 1st husband. My grandma being a very strong woman as she is refuses to have a monogamy marriage and divorce her first husband. My grandma was selling food on a train station and that’s how she met her second husband – my grandfather. My grandfather was 6 yrs younger than she is and still single. And he’s a pilot! Well, my grandma was a very beautiful woman too. Long story short, they got married and have 2 kids, my mom and my uncle. My mom said, my grandpa even though he’s younger and very good looking adores his wife, even when my grandma was no longer able to have anymore kids – and he still want more kids – he stood by her all the way. And for my aunt, she sticks to their marriage for her kids until her husband left her.
My aunt is also a very strong woman, but somehow in this matter she became weak. But they got divorce and I remember, in her 50s, there’s a man who fall in love with her – this man was in her 40 and he’s the director of one of the local bank in Jakarta. She refuses to have a relationship with him due to the fact she can’t have anymore kids so he will not able to have biological kids of his own. But in the end love win and he convince her. They got married when I was about 5 – 6 yrs old. I was the flower girl. I have never seen my Aunt so happy.
Back to my Mom, she then told me that she learned from both her mother and her sister, when it comes to marriage and finding your soul mate, you can’t listen to what your heart feels – but you need to listen to what your heart is thinking. She told me love is a very unstable emotion, especially when it comes so fast like a fireworks, then it’ll normally die just as fast. She told me she’s looking for someone who will always love her no matter how she’ll look in the next 10, 20,30 yrs because physical beauty will never last. My dad, according to her had proved that. It was never about money, it was never about looks – those things will never last forever. Unconditional love, finding someone who will always accept us for who we are at any given conditions.
…and the journey begin…
We took a little vacation visiting family about a month ago. Beside WI, we also went to Chicago for 2 days. Did a lot of walking and lots of sighseeing. I feel a slight fever while I was there I thought I was just tired from the trip. We got back to CO Wednesday morning and my “sickness” continue… I was in a very bad shape Saturday & Sunday so I finally went to the doctor on Monday… surprise.. I’m pregant not sick…
Totally unexpected and we’re all very surprise, my Mom, my suster and my Dad is very happy I can still remember how my Mom just scream in delight when we told them the news. They are the first group of people we told. I still haven’t told a lot of people … yeah I know I posted on this blog, but not many of our own people know about this blog. My husband still don’t want to tell his parents just yet. Not meaning to keep a secret but with past history we rather play it safe and wait until maybe 2nd trimester before making a big annoucement.
This pregnancy is very different than what I experience with Tyra.. I know every one of them will be different. What was called morning sickness is something I experience all day not just morning. I feel downright misarable – no kidding! I have no energy .. everything is making me sick .. I feel bad cause I feel like I’ve been ignoring Tyra. Thank God my mom is here!!
Then 2 weeks ago, I started having a small bleeding after urinate. I freak out – going to the doctor having a urgent ultrasound – my doctor is very calm, but he wasn’t as chatty as usual so I know something is wrong. Turn out, he can’t find the baby’s heart beat… every worse possible scenario is popping into my head. He schedule me for a different ultra sound this time using a much better machine that will pick up a slight movement. Of course the insurance will have to approve it first. Took 3 days and we finally have the ultrasound… and Thank God we can hear the heartbeat!!
However the bleeding continues – doctor put me in a high risk catagory and I have to be seen once a week. In the meantime the morning – all day sickness is also continues… I should take comfort in my sickness. It mean the baby still there and I read morning sickness somehow relate to a healthy baby! Amien!!
and baby makes four….
Next springs, our garden will sure to bloom.. We’re going to have fun decorating baby room!
We’re letting you know that we’re expanding our house with two more feet…. We’re pregnant!!!
We’re expecting a healthy baby by April 30th, 2010
THE VIRTUES OF PREGNANCY in Islam
During Ramadhan, I try to read more religious books and I come across this article on woman and pregnancy and its beautiful, I just want to share it with you all the wonderful woman out there
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. When a woman is pregnant with a child, all the angels will make Istighfar (repentance) on her behalf. Allah SWT will, for each day of her pregnancy, write for her 1000 good deeds and erase from her 1000 bad deeds. · When a pregnant woman starts to feel the pain from contractions, Allah SWT will write in her records as someone who is doing jihad (spiritual or physical struggle) in His path. · When a woman becomes pregnant by her husband and he is pleased with her, she obtains the reward of a person engaging in fasting for Allah SWT and a person spending the night in ibaadah (worship). · A woman from the time of pregnancy until childbirth and weaning the baby, is like the Mujahid (someone fighting in the path of Allah, swa) who is stationed on the frontiers of the Islamic land. If she dies during this period, she dies the death of a shahid (martyr). |
· Two raka’at salaat performed by a pregnant woman is better than 80 raka’at salaat performed by a non-pregnant woman.
· A woman who is pregnant gets the reward of fasting during the day and of doing ibaadah (worship) during the nights.
· A woman who gives birth gets the reward of 70 years of salaat (prayer) and fasting. For each vein that feels pain, Allah SWT gives her the reward of one accepted hajj (Pilgrimage to Makkah).
· If the woman dies within 40 days of giving birth, she will die as a shahid (matyr).
(Hadith)…….”A woman that dies in her virginity or during her pregnancy or at the time of birth or thereafter (in nifaas) will attain the rank of a martyr”
Nabi(salalaallahu alayhi wassallam) is reported to have also said “…….When her labor pains commence, the inhabitants of the earth and the sky are unaware of the stores of comfort that are prepared for her. When she delivers and breast feeds her child, then she will be granted a reword for every gulp of milk, if she had to remain awake during the night for the sake of the child, she will receive the reword of emancipating seventy slaves in the path of Allah Ta’ala. O Salaamat! Do you know who these women are? They are pious, upright, with a delicate nature yet obedient to their husbands and not ungrateful to them”
[Source: Madrasa In'aamiyyah]
